NiCOLE

We don’t judge
別人ㄉ故事
就祝福吧

曾經無助

童年很重要
某段時期常被當笑料箭靶
造成我很怕生沒自信

我ㄉ工作對象就是人
But在跟人接觸這塊

假假真真
謊言x坦白
才能粉飾對過去ㄉ恐懼

心寬ㄌ
祝福才能真誠
誰也不是誰ㄉ救贖

今年送給自己ㄉ生日禮物
不是Chenel也不是Hermès
是這張D.O.D堂卡

我一直很業餘

The idea we can control our fate is an illusion
在命運面前
我們只能謙卑

所謂ㄉ雲淡風輕

we all have secrets
沒有所謂100分ㄉ人生 
每ㄍ人都有自己ㄉ問題 
若沒有強大ㄉ動力與興趣支持 
這條路會走ㄉ很辛苦 

腦中還迴盪著ICRT新聞：UK在傷腦筋2010該稱twenty ten 或 two thousand ten時，2010就醬子莫名其妙的到來ㄌ!

這次跨年，本來想去看101煙火，沒想到1/1就被排值班，只好乖乖留在台中跨年嚕!
方案很多....Xaga, home party, sing K @錢櫃, 泡溫泉...
最後...印月股東ㄚ姨supported我們幾ㄍ小毛頭count down @ 心月motel

在醫院工作....日子過得特別快，不知不覺就25 y/oㄌ?!

曾經太過年輕
曾經太過相信

Declaration of Geneva 
At the time of being admitted as a member of the medical profession:

I solemnly pledge to consecrate my life to the service of humanity;

I will give to my teachers the respect and gratitude that is their due;  

I will practise my profession with conscience and dignity;

The health of my patient will be my first consideration;

I will respect the secrets that are confided in me, even after the patient has died;

I will maintain by all the means in my power, the honour and the noble traditions of the medical profession;

前幾天在中友，有一ㄍ男生找我聊天....他問我幾歲，我就回說＂我一定比你大！＂結果我真ㄉ比他大ㄌ2歲，他不可置信ㄉ一直說＂但你真ㄉ看起來很小ㄟ...＂看著棒棒堂打扮ㄉ他，我笑著回說＂我看你也很小ㄚ!!!!＂看著穿著黑&灰ㄉ我，這小男孩竟然說想教我怎ㄇ打扮，穿出日本風格........... 我只好回答他說＂我老ㄌ，那種五顏六色留給你們小朋友吧....＂

呼......24 y/o，應該要有怎樣ㄉ成熟度ㄋ? 
我怎ㄇ覺ㄉ在心態上....我已經好老好老ㄌ?!

在醫院當intern要值班，又遇上內科，一整ㄍ又忙又累，一直到CRS才比較輕鬆，才有機會檢視自己ㄉ生活
有些人靠近；有些人遠離；有些人消失；有些人always there for me...
或許....我對某些事看ㄉ雲淡風輕ㄌ；或許....我一直重蹈覆轍；或許....i keep gettin' better

Well...another new yr & another new day...
in the 1st day of 2009, 我真是早睡早起ㄚ~~~ 3:30am~11:00am...what an energetic start?! 

今年的跨年，由CL的拜年電話搶頭香，而一向都走懶惰路線的我只texted＂Happy new yr＂；最最最最最sweet的是君，漂洋過海ㄉ寄ㄌ卡片，我ㄉ眼淚都快掉下來ㄌ....；而最強大ㄉ是佑俞....每年ㄉ拜年都好長ㄉ一大串! 立欣一向走知性路線，不知道是法文 or 德文ㄉmsg；最白吃的是妹妹，因為怕簡訊塞車，so...在倒數前傳，結果遠在墾丁ㄉ他竟然回傳＂我們這邊還在數＂
呼...因為卡到期末考，今年的跨年計畫真ㄉ是一波三折，不過後來還是解決ㄌ：跟居仁幫的寶貝們在金色三麥counted down!!! 很濕很冷...但也很high．哇哈哈....我還載大家上都會放煙火ㄟ，只是路上遇到飆車族我都怕怕ㄉ，很怕又有人來挑釁找我尬車。

2008回顧 & 2009展望

好像有點久沒寫ㄌ...趁人生最後一ㄍmidterm wk結束，來隨便寫寫吧！

我在幹麻?!
回學校ㄉ最後2個月，我在幹嘛哩?! 當然是瘋狂ㄉ吃喝玩樂嚕!!! 進ㄌ醫院，才發現學長姊說ㄉ＂其實還是當學生好！好好把握你們在學校ㄉ日子吧！＂是ㄚ~~~~翹課、老師在前面講ㄉ很開心我們在後面聊ㄉ更開心（鬼鬼好幾次都被醫生點ㄋ）、快下課ㄌ才到教室、一次簽ㄌ好幾ㄍ名（哇哈哈...我可是簽名小天后ㄋ）....這些屬於學生ㄉprerogative，全都在這幾ㄍ星期被用ㄉ淋漓盡致。

旅行會上癮
以為去ㄌLondon & Paris，應該購我撐很久ㄌ！沒想到我體內ㄉnomad gene又開始蠢蠢欲動！對於break in late May有一些想法：
HAWAII

今天要內科值班，so...回到家、聊ㄍmsn，準備要洗澡時已經快11 pmㄌ！  

拖著疲累ㄉ身體，打開衣櫃！咦...今天ㄉ衣櫃怎ㄇ怪怪ㄉ，心裡納悶ㄌ好幾秒，後來才發現---怎ㄇ在我ㄉhorizontal gaze下看不到衣服（我很懶...通常只看我水平視線看到ㄉ東西）？再仔細一看....OMFG!!! WTH?! （⊙ｏ⊙;）  

來ㄍ看圖說故事好ㄌ：

衣櫃關起來ㄉ樣子！

不想怪自己，又不知道要怪誰...so就都怪天氣吧!!!

昨天值班，到家都快10:30ㄌ，喜ㄍ澡念ㄍ書...快1:00才睡覺。而每天早上7:30都要查房，so...我要早早6:00前起床。今天中午在補眠時，不知道哪ㄍ好朋友打我手機，一整ㄍ把我吵醒。呼...吵醒我就算ㄌ，還沒留下紀錄 & 把我手機打到沒電...讓我一整ㄍ不知道該找誰算帳！

後來一如往常ㄉ，跟查房到6:30...天空又下大雨ㄌ．心裡又開始咒罵，but罵歸罵，還是要回家ㄚ！

其實也不知道是我太累恍神還是雨天視線不佳，竟然沒注意到有一台闖紅燈ㄉTAXI。而我也呆呆ㄉ看到綠燈就往前衝，就＂砰＂ㄉ一聲，我一整ㄍ垂直往他ㄉ車尾撞下去。下一秒我反應過來時，整台摩托車都壓在我身上，唉...不要看我那ㄇ大隻，其實我被我ㄉ小100壓ㄉ無法動彈，好在有好心ㄉ路人幫我把車扶起來！至於那一台可惡ㄉ計程車，當然是加速逃逸啦！雖然路人有好心幫我記車牌，但我一整ㄍ想說算ㄌ，能保住我這條小命還跟人家計較啥ㄇ？我對那ㄍ司機而言，應該也算是飛來橫禍吧！

The finals came to an end this morning, and there is no doubt that i ended up exhausted, coz i onli slept 4~5 hrs/day this wk....  However, days in the library were kinda happy becoz of 恩慈.....我們一直互嗆互嗆互嗆阿!!! 

Before goin' to 中榮 on 5 May, we have a 9-day holiday.  
A relaxin' holliday ahead??? Shot up.....一堆哩哩扣扣ㄉ事等著我阿~~~~~ 
4/28 EBM頒獎 
4/29 台北瓣英簽 
OMG....i waana do nothin' cept 放空放空放空再放空~~~~~ I wanna enjoy my holiday!!! 

Ive been livin' with a shadow overhead
Ive been sleepin' with a cloud above my bed
Ive been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, i just can't seem to move on

Ive been hidin' all my hopes & dreams away
Just in case i ever need them again someday

Spednin' 2 months with diff ppl in the hospital was interestin' and surely teached me alot. However, because i ain't familiar with those ppl i was workin' with druing the 2 months, i was sort of cautious, and in most cases, i tended to keep it low, be invisible, and play possum. 中庸之道 is my survive principle!!!

．．．．．．．．．．．．．
Our course ended on Thursday, and in the first place, my frienz and i had a plan on that nite, but because of my family business, we didn't meet up then. Afterward, as soon as i finished my family works, i called them on the fone or left them offline msg to ask them out the next day. 

Then 蔡小姐, 嘉玲, 立欣, 慧芳 n' i decided to eat brunch @ Bagels ’n Beans.
OLD FRIENZ R IRREPLACEABLE.　
We talked ALOT....and we could hardly stop...

It seems sort of late to post my wishes of 2008...

1. Be used to the hospital life in both 中山 &中榮.
2. Lose weight: ive said this for yrs, but never make it.
3. Make more frienz & experience more
4. Goin' to jp, hk for their individualized fashions
5. Study in NK
6. Control my emotions better

Hangin' out with jD today........what a happy day yah!!!!!

I went to jD's house to get her around 11:00, and we discussed about where to. Then we decided to go to 五權西路 for lunch, Birkenstock, Fatty's for visitin' her frienz, and 新光.

We took a look around 五權西路 and made the decision to eat lunch at La Bretagne, where id heard for a long time. Well, i think La Bretagne was worthy to visit again....... Tho we'd talked alot on Friday night for >3 hrs, we still shared alot durin' lunch. Shes such an irreplaceable sista, and i hope it can last forever and ever.

Afterward, we went to Birkenstock for a pair of comfortable shoes for my hospital-life. OMG.....慧芳 told me that a pair of shoes was about 2500NTD, but all i saw were 4000~5000NTD.  I had no choice but borrow money from jD for a pair of 4500NTD shoes....>"<

Don't feel like wrtin' Blog lately....maybe thats because i don't wanna be 2 exposed. 
 
Ive been figurin' out the def of frienz & i assume that should be those who can help me grow up. They may not be those im always hangin' around, but they r definitely those i luv to talk to & share my mind. Neway.....thanks for u guys support.

Spendin' around $20'000 on Jp class + Wolrd Gym & Cosmetics is goin' to take me around $5000. Ohohoh.......我ㄉ存摺ㄚ~~~!!!!! Though i earned around $122'000 last wk ...spendin' $25'000 is alomost killin' me. Sigh, the more money i earn, the less money i wanna spend & all i want is 把它們放在銀行生小錢.

玉米 recommended World Gym (萵苣) to me...well, WG is much better than 佳麗 from facilities to bathrooms...everything is better.  Hope i can lose weight successfully.